new chapters

You know, most music out there is about romantic love beginning or ending. I want female empowerment songs. Like India.Arie:

Sometimes I shave my legs and sometimes I don’t
Sometimes I comb my hair and sometimes I won’t
Depend on how the wind blows I might even paint my toes
It really just depends on whatever feels good in my soul

I’m not the average girl from your video
And I ain’t built like a supermodel
But I learned to love myself unconditionally,
Because I am a queen

I not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I’m wearing I will always be
India.Arie

When I look in the mirror and the only one there is me
Every freckle on my face is where it’s suppose to be
And I know my creator didn’t make no mistakes on me
My feet, my thighs, my Lips, my eyes, I’m loving what I see

Keep your fancy drink, and your expensive minks
I don’t need that to have a good time
Don’t need your silicone, I prefer my own
What God gave me is just fine.

pink bubbly, strawberry cupcakes, and sundresses

Most blogs have a theme. It's helpful if you want readers, because readers are generally looking for something specific, and if your blog has a lot of that specific thing then you'll keep attracting those readers back. But I'm not interested enough in just one thing to have a whole blog specifically for that. I don't cook that much and don't know that many recipes. I'm not a relationship guru. I don't travel because I'm poor. I don't have kids, and don't want to. And I get bored easily. So, I will have something different each post.

Today, I was just thinking about things I like about summer as a grown up. And I have decided. I like:

Summer clothes. (I hate the slutty clothes, but the cute summer clothes I do like!)

Summer shoes

Summer patterns (the view on the far right is best!)

Retro swimsuits

Summer cupcakes. If I don't get a pink strawberry cupcake with pink strawberry icing soon....well, I wouldn't really do anything, but the point is I want one.

And last but not least, summertime bubbly....

So, when I want to cry this summer because I'm so miserable, I'll have pink bubbly with a strawberry cupcake while wearing a pretty sundress that I made myself. I probably won't be wearing shoes because there's no way I'll be outside when it's 100 degrees with 100% humidity... ;) I only do that when forced.

This reminds me, I hope to get a nice pair of shoes soon. Maybe for my birthday! I'm sadly lacking in the shoe department. That would brighten things up. And next time I go to the store, I am getting a mix for strawberry cupcakes. I know it's trendy to make everything from scratch, but it's a lot more expensive and I think I mentioned that I'm poor.

That's all for now, folks!

carefree and without shame

You know, I remember when summer was fun. :) Now, I can't stand the heat and humidity and having to wear sunscreen all the time. The air conditioner is my best friend. But when I was a kid, we were outside constantly. Fire hydrants. Running around in the woods and the fields. Playing pretend in the sandbox and shed and on the swing set. Hearing the ice cream truck and running inside to beg quarters from our parents, then running back outside to the truck and every kid in the neighborhood was buying ice cream. Turning brown as a berry. I remember when I was in third grade, I had a good friend and neighbor who was from England. She also had a pool. So I was at her house one day, and we wanted to go swimming, but I didn't have my bathing suit! I said I would run across the street to get it, and she said don't worry, you don't need a swim suit! So we went skinny dipping. I had no idea it was shocking here in America until I went home and my mom expressed dismay. (My mom does feel bad about that - she wishes she hadn't expressed dismay!)

Now buildings have taken the place of the woods and fields, and there has to be great incentive to convince me to brave the bugs, and kids these days don't get excited about ice cream trucks like we did. If I have a pool of my own someday, though, I'll go skinny dipping again. Just to remember what it was like to be a child, carefree and without shame, jumping off the diving board naked as a jay bird, with my arms raised in the air, and laughing.

In other news, I feel awesome today after the great workout yesterday. Yes, my muscles hurt like hell, but it's a very good kind of hurt. If I keep this up, I'll be ready for the summer in no time! Today I've gone easy in order to rest my muscles, but tomorrow I'm going to amp it up.

I cleaned a bit today to help my Hercules. :) It's not my forte, but it felt good.

Speaking of cleaning, this is the truth:

the first post

I've had a renewed excitement the past few days about pilates. I had grown bored of the intermediate stuff, and wanted something more challenging. Unfortunately I can't get a gym membership right now, so I went to youtube and found a few things I really like (after weeding through all the stuff I really don't like). I need a video that is fast-paced, without explanation about the exercises. I know what I'm doing now, so just do the exercise, you know? I have eyes! ;) Anyway, so I'm back to exercising every day, thank goodness! Apparently I need something challenging and fresh enough to get excited about. As time goes on I'll probably post videos that I particularly like, in case anyone else would be interested in them.

I have a tendency to say things without thinking them through first. If I feel it, I say it. This causes a regular inserting of my foot into my mouth. I'm working very hard to change that, especially in order to better a particular relationship.

I'm thankful for my Hercules. That will be his name, because of his strength. I'm thankful for my family and friends.

That was a haphazard introduction, but it wasn't actually an introduction. It was really more a smattering of random thoughts I suppose. I'll attempt to be more structured and focused next time.

I need to do some stretches. But first, a big truth that helps me right now: